There is none of that going on here. I'm not sure why. I definitely feel affected by the shortening days and now the time change, but for the last two weeks of our taper before this Sunday's half marathon, I have not been able to drag myself out to run other than the two weekly group runs and I have not missed it. I actually feel like I'm losing motivation, and unfortunately, I'm still eating like I'm running 20 miles a week...um, maybe even more?
Admittedly, I have not been consistent with taking my medication, and I feel it...I can feel the "darkness" tugging at the edges, the anxiety and insomnia, the jumpiness, and the desire to just sink into the couch and watch another 10 episodes of "Parenthood" (which is what I did nearly all day yesterday). I am grateful that I recognize this and can catch myself before slipping too far down the slippery slope.
So next week is the half marathon! And yes, I am excited. I'm going to be running alongside new friend Megan from running group. We are a good match for pace and I am confident we will finish below our goal time of 3 hours. I bought a new outfit on Saturday so I would not have to run in my hole-in-the-knee, too-short-by-alot pants from last year. It was not a pleasant experience being in the dressing room with my limited XL options, but my focus right now is on getting through this race and enjoying the weekend at the beach with new friends. When I get home I am going to hit the ground running (literally, I hope!) with Amanda's Holiday Bootie Buster Challenge! I am working on working on my schedule.
Is it strange that I am not nervous about the half? I can't believe how the time has flown, though, and I feel like once the race is over, my life is going to shift into ludicrous speed and before I know it, Christmas will be here and I am so not ready! Although, I do have to admit I am looking forward to the time off work, for sure. Turns out trying to stay upbeat about crappy situations can really wear a girl out!
Well, since I was basically a slug all weekend (after my 8 mile run on Saturday morning), I did not get my grocery shopping done, so I am going to go reacquaint myself with Lowes online grocery shopping!